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released May 19, 2015

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Track Name: rock, pebble, stone
You pushed my head under the water
I lost my breath, but the skyline called my name

The wilds the wilds the wilds they pull you in
These miles we’ve walked and miles we talked have been
The first time I am not alone in my head
By itself, oneself, can’t find where it began

The dust you’ll find beneath my feet
Reminds me of the simpler things
When it was only you and me
But now I see, now I see

So we all fall asleep
So we laugh and play
So we drink and eat

So we count our time
So we know our keep
But it floats away,
Nothing seems to stay these days
Fragile and weak
It’s been years and now
I get a moment to speak

And all I think about
Is what to say
When your face to face with nothing
And nothing will escape your lips

The clouds, the clouds, the clouds
They take their shape
We dream that in their billows
Are answers to this place
You ask me to surrender
You’re sure it’s what I’ll take
We broke our bread together
And cursed it at the gates

I’m a son of a father
My mother’s oldest one
You make your trade with your brothers
Sister you’re not the only one

Head to toe I’m drowning
I told you not to speak
Frail and fragile weak dim
The light down on the street.

But the light still lingers

In my eyes

I’m a son of a father
My mother’s oldest one
You make your trade with your brothers
Sister you’re not the only one
Track Name: thrash
Align yourself
With the freed men
How can you deny this ground
You sold your flesh

Tell yourself that you’re a free man
Tear your vestments the slave becomes the crown

The thirst filled us the worst years of
Birth and death were held by threads

The turning set about the pages saw escape
The filth of years beneath our fingers washed away
Then gold within our ears drew figures and erased
The wretched lost their way, they’re standing here today

Resist with wounded eyes, wide awake but dead inside

You’re breaking my heart You’re breaking my heart
Standing here the audience will tear me all apart
The hardened answers you planned fell apart
So blanket me, so you can see, you’ve broken my heart

So I will tell you one last thing, intertwine us for history
it will seal our fates, But I’ll take my place

Your rigid throats proclaim the righteous written word
But you cut out the veins and now you sleep with her
It’s dripping from your mouths, It’s pouring from your skin
The lust of power takes you and the stench has settled in
You have ground your teeth craving control

I see what’s waiting for me, and it’s beautiful so beautiful
I can’t stop these words they all rush to me
But I guess I’ve lost my senses there’s just so much to see
Many times in my life I doubted your words
But here I am and everything I’ve heard is true
And it’s you, so beautiful
Beautiful to me
Track Name: hard times
I sat there while you plead your case, for confidence and secrets to be erased
I was riddled by your words
I bet that you could hardly wait to send the cavalry, for me, your subtly replaced

With spoils
(My father told me)
Of your work
(Don’t forget who you are, when you’re one step from death you’ll still have your north star)
The things I
(My strength decieved me, I thought I’d own the world )
I know my worth isn’t
But this fool I’ve become can’t see straight to forget her)

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes, and spill the hope you had and you’re left to spin the why’s by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they’d sell and nothing else

So I sit here making my big plans,
Like they could rescue me but now I see
The answer through my window,
That nothing can replace
Those memories my father gave me
Are all that’s left but Im ready
To escape this life
The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes, and spill the hope you had and you’re left to spin the why’s by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they’d sell and nothing else

I’m sorry for the words I couldn’t say, I’m sorry that your efforts were in vain, You were promised so much more than I have gave, I’m not a honest man I was born for the grave.
This city stole the faith you had in me, This mistress stole the life I hadn’t seen. But this face is the last thing they’ll see, I want to feel the sun and sky on my face as I die!

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes, and spill the hope you had and you’re left to spin the why’s by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they’d sell and nothing else
Track Name: the beginning
Wait
don't go
i've been walking through these woods shivering in these new clothes
and I
I wanted to see
the world through eyes
but they were never meant for me

It was placed just right, to catch the eyes, we waited completely naked
But never underestimate the lie, that kind, that breaks it, the whole life that you tasted

I thought I heard her say
I don't want to go
but the words hurt more than I thought through
and nothing leaves you quite as cold
As my father's back turned on me
when you take someone down the garden path
you take someone for all they have


And death
was only a word
but to a jealous heart that has made it's plans
it was the soil that gave it birth
And the sun it’s light there on me
Shone through the clouds and upon my feet
To the ground that we chose as a door to leave

Die for one man
I was so in love. I was just so young and so in love.
How could I say no to the hand that was built for me
I saw it so clear, like the first day you laughed or said my name
I couldn't say no, but we both know, we both know


We would have been changed like the days of our lives
The illusion was ours, it was joy it was rapture ,
Oh this place is a hell with it's death and goodbyes

And you can't stop yourself when you’re dreaming of days
But these pieces will fade until there's only this place
.
in this world that’s to come, it's only the fear

was there ever a moment, just a moment the truth could touch our lips
Would it have mattered, the harvest will come

If I would have chosen another, it would have meant I loved him more than you
Track Name: the less you say
You ever catch yourself just thinking of a way to get out?
It’s like a reflex motion.
The words slip in and leave a taste that you let linger for days, inside your heart.

We fell asleep, just like before, there under trees
I can’t do this anymore

Make this all something that’s behind us
For me and for you, this is not the end but I’m scared

Color your words in a soft subtle sequence
But you force this on us like we shouldn’t care
The fields they will find us in are marked and now
The end, the end, the end is here

We fell asleep, just like before,
you said I can’t do this anymore

You better run, you best not stay
They catch you here this all goes away
This all goes away

Just give me a chance to change your mind
Speak with the others you will see
The place that you now hope to find, your peace will cut pieces right out from me

You could make this all go away

Years Swept by us like Seas
And we slept by ourselves to see
We hid hope in our sleeves
And all the world knew we believed

This life took me by the hand
God knows where you’ll find yourself in the end

You better run, you best not stay
They catch you here this all goes away
This all goes away.

The less you say the more I’m can’t shake
The reason you would leave is the reason you could stay
Track Name: pink slip
This town ain’t big enough for both of us,
So don’t sleep on the things that my hands have done
The flora and the fire keep lighting up the distance
Careful with your mouth don’t let it run

Out of sight, out of mind
Dug my heels into the earth
It was safe, it was mine, but this is where the way turns

Take it while you get it, toss this and forget it
As you swallow your seat and your son
You’re plagued with pride of fathers
Long since dead behind you
Careful with your feet don’t let them run
To question yourself the cursed will stay away
You can camoflouge, you can lock up and you can stow away. But it is to question one’s self in a hideout to leave the cover, the cursed will stay away. And in my hard heart I tried to block out, and to blot out, and obstruct the clouds. But the shroud, the bell, the blanket and the envelope will eclipse them now.
Forget what you left, this part is never easy

Standing where the water meets the shore you feel the sun
Touch your face and leave it’s mark with nowhere left to run
To hide your shaking hands and words that swore this was the day.
You never feel as weak as when the answers go away


I was caught in the current, it’s a lesson and I’ve learned it
The teacher left scars on our fists
I’m the worst, I’m the worst, just please leave me here
There’s pain we never speak of, second guess the ones that we love
And the last thing you want is for your last words to sound so scared, but you find yourself here, alone and scared
Will they leave you here, Will you leave me here


The best part of that
Is I want it back
The best things to say
I want to say
that all this time I was wrong
The water’s deep
As they find their sleep
And I begged for less
But I second guessed
That you would come
After me

From the hands of my mother to the hands of a girl
From the hands of my mother to the hands of the world
From the hands of my mother to the hands I see before me
Could I part this deep
I never wanted to say but I had to
And I’ll take your blame but it was always you
We left after morning as you called to your name

The past still waits
It’s the pain we never speak of
To catch my eye,
Second guess the ones that we love
And I never stopped
All the words and our confessions
To question
I never thought that I should question
To question why
Track Name: to the deep
Align yourself
With the freed men
How can you deny this ground
You sold your flesh

Tell yourself that you’re a free man
Tear your vestments the slave becomes the crown

The thirst filled us the worst years of
Birth and death were held by threads

The turning set about the pages saw escape
The filth of years beneath our fingers washed away
Then gold within our ears drew figures and erased
The wretched lost their way, they’re standing here today

Resist with wounded eyes, wide awake but dead inside

You’re breaking my heart You’re breaking my heart
Standing here the audience will tear me all apart
The hardened answers you planned fell apart
So blanket me, so you can see, you’ve broken my heart

So I will tell you one last thing, intertwine us for history
it will seal our fates, But I take my place

Your rigid throats proclaim the righteous written word
But you cut out the veins and now you sleep with her
It’s dripping from your mouths, It’s pouring from your skin
The lust of power takes you and the stench has settled in
You have ground your teeth craving control

I see what’s waiting for me, and it’s beautiful so beautiful
I can’t stop these words they all rush to me
But I guess I’ve lost my senses there’s just so much to see
Many times in my life I doubted your words
But here I am and everything I’ve heard is true
And it’s you, so beautiful
Beautiful to me
Track Name: what's stopping you
I wanted to sit out of this one but my God you’re so convincing
I said I would and I meant I’d try but with a wealth of doubts came a mouth full of lies
(I said that i would, and i meant every word but it took the ending)
I sank my teeth in the kingdom come and spit out my years and held back my tongue
(And all that i heard, from the foot of my bed this was just the beginning)

Make this your business what I am about to say
The last touch between us took this all the way.

Don’t believe for once that I could let this go away
It’s right behind, these eyes of mine even if I stay

And I wanted to fix this like you fixed my name to this

I said I would and I meant I’d try but with a wealth of doubts came a mouth full of lies
I sank my teeth in the kingdom come and spit out my years pulled back my tongue

Forget the wasted time we've made it
The stars are out just in time to see.
The dark retreating and shadows fleeting
We found the ground beneath our feet.
What’s stopping you (What’s stopping you)
What’s stopping you don’t let this in
What’s stopping you (What’s stopping you)
What’s stopping you can’t stop all of this

These clumsy arms can’t be the first
Distance your regrets is what i've heard

You sit there with a pardon like a present
Oh my soul
Those words I guess i'm never gonna be alone
But I’m on my own

Don’t believe for once that I would let this go away

Forget the wasted time we've made it
(I knew it right away)

The stars are out just in time to see.
(This would break all of their hearts)
The dark retreating and shadows fleeting
(I couldn’t stay away)
We found the ground beneath our feet.
(A good person always plays their part)
What’s stopping you (What’s stopping you)
What’s stopping you don’t let this in
What’s stopping you (What’s stopping you)
What’s stopping you can’t stop all of this

Always wanted to say that I would be the first.
From the ground to the table I planned and rehearsed
To be there at the moment to capture my name,
But it’s yours and not mine and it’s your’s that he made

Lift up your hands it’s surrender or praise
So you burn all your plans for the words you believed
The nails you learned to drive between
The wood and earth that made you see
That simple men of simple means
can hold the heavens in their hands

Second place I find here
(I’ve always known my part)
The upper case is yours not mine
(But I would love to see this through)
Teach these hands to have fear
(Could we go back to the start)
Orchestrate my words and lines.
(When it was just me and you)

But I never said I wanted any of this, I never said no
Track Name: go wrong young man
I thought I was the sun and all it’s light
shining in the dark, your vengeance my guide
I wanted to take this world back for you
Tearing skin and voice let the light breakthrough

I can’t see a thing
I want this more than anything

The headlight stopped my feet from moving and my eyelids could not close or move away. From the echo of the voice that buckled both my knees and flung me to the ground beneath the weight. The earth and road seemed like they were not there at all but there it was and everything in place. But I was changed, I was not the same


But now I confess, here in my own flesh is the familiar and the intimate

7 words, 7 words have severed into me
7 words, 7 words have brought me to my knees

Count your blessings that you’ve never seen the things the simple things were ours to take. But the questions danced around our innocence and now the innocence is nothing more than faith. Gather towards the door your things, come quickly now, the morning gives the light away. Open your heart, to the very worst parts and let them depart


I cut my teeth on the flesh of the liars
I made my words into stones and then broke all the bones
I never saw the blade, that ripped up my rib cage
My eyes glazed over and the world moved on
How dare we speak of future and boast of legacy
Track Name: taken for a bath
And I wanted to see it, the crease and the curve of the skin
Four words got me in again and again again b
But my friend, it was the light just behind us, I knew we never could keep up
The beds we make, the steps we take, are graves we fill everyday


Roof top views of city buildings gathered
where the sun sets on them steals the eye
Touch the streets with feet in hurried measure
Our discretion means we never lie.

We never have to lie

You stole my eyes, so you I will take
You are the test of our grace
Threads become lines, we cross till they break
And they break from the seams to the bodies of men.

The illusion was ours, it was joy and it was rapture,
I would have settled for capture, but a lost life found my bed
And all the wages of another and the secret is no longer mine
Warm the body like so many others
your discretion means we never lie

We never have to lie

We will lie we will take
Withered and Crushed the fire and the fate
You will die for our sake
We will see the world in the blood


You stole my eyes, so you I will take
You are the test of our grace
Threads become lines, we cross till they break
and They break from the seams to the bodies of men.


Time says we are meant to suffer slink back to the retch
I called him home
I never wanted them to wither or be crushed by the weight
The choice was all his own,
How could I have known
The simple answers that hold people to the fire and their fate

Wait and see for yourself it's in the blood, it’s in the blood, the whole world is in the blood

I'd rather tell you how I ruled the world and never stopped
But this heart mine is shaking like a spinning top
And as it slows all my sins have caught the last of me

That reflection in the water tells a story true
But it's the last thing you want staring back at you
And wrinkled hands weak from plunder barely stir this away

There were years where our faces stayed in front us
There were moments we forgot what this really was
But the death of a memory, is the death we carry

We're desperate and dead set, we carry reasons in our chests
We reset and forget, the songs we sing are for the blessed
Don't take this personally, your quiet exit stole the show
The regrets are all said
Kings and kingdoms come and go.
Track Name: Salvatore Wryhta
Take my hands and lead me carry me the distance
Leave me at the place where, the
work is done

I don’t want to sound like a broken record, but please bear with me, this is more than I can take
I’m shaking with sweat and asking for a friend but somewhere in the end they’ve left my side

Did pretense make you weak your legs can’t even stand the promise of the dead is that they won’t be back again
Darkness Darkness found me, here like a common thief
You guard the exits captain, but choices are never free
Take my hands lead me on
I don’t want to give you answers
That you’d throw right back in to my face
I’m exhausted from being myself
But your voice, is the voice here and always

Inside, inside follow
Control that you swallow
You’ve got the numbers on your side
To bury me

It’s just as you said, in those words, I am identified

Let’s get this started right now
The endless excuses
We’re all to watch me try
Now to die

Did pretense make you weak your legs can’t even stand the promise of the dead is that they won’t be back again

This favor cast on me, but in this regard I disagree,
The life you take is the only thing I have here to my name, The only thing I have is now taken away.

The mystery of iniquity the weight of secrets brought to a rest
Blood and bone have been my home, but in the eyes I see
why it took me

Hung around here, just waiting to go home
The earth is dark and cold and I think I now know
You give yourself away, this ends alone
But I wonder, I wonder

Who gave you all your jewels, what made you sell your rights
(And you say that you have the right to turn your back on me)
When did you know you’d forget that once you tried to fight
(And you claim that this is not your responsibility)
We grow older in this skin, We grow older in this skin
(For the ones that you placed here)
But the day you say you know your own way
(For the ones that you left here)
Is the day the blood begins to drip from our fingers
As we cling to the earth
It’s Pitiful

But now I know what it’s like to be alone
Track Name: alone
Who gave you all your jewels, what made you sell your rights
(And you say that you have the right to turn your back on me)
When did you know you’d forget that once you tried to fight
(And you claim that this is not your responsibility)
We grow older in this skin, We grow older in this skin
(For the ones that you placed here)
But the day you say you know your own way
(For the ones that you left here)
Is the day the blood begins to drip from our fingers
As we cling to the earth
It’s Pitiful

But now I know what it’s like to be alone